Rest in PeaceAnd this probably won't help much, but I just felt like I had to say something.
Rest in peace, Rachel. We love you and miss you and know you're not in pain anymore.
Where ever you may be, I hope you're safe.
Part of me is just torn up--I mean, I'm crying as I'm typing this.
And I thought I'd been through the worst part this morning.
I found out last night...but, I was just shocked and I didn't know how to really act.
Kind of like how
was today.But after I saw everyone just break down...I ended up sobbing too.
I didn't even know her that well.
And I really wish I did.
I just keep thinking, "If I had known her better...maybe I would've known...And maybe tried to help."
"Maybe if she just had one more friend, this wouldn't have happened..."
I guess it hurts because she was in anime club--
And we're a family.
(What a family, huh? xD)
And then I just start crying harder.
Augh.
I don't...even know if I really want to know why.
It'd just piss me off.
And make me cry more.
For everyone who was there today when we found out...
Thanks so much.
Really.
Just being there with all of us, as a family, trying to get through it really made it easier.
The only reason I stopped crying is because of my friends.
Sitting in the theater sharing stories helped a lot.
By the time I left, I wasn't crying.
Though...later, I just kept crying and crying.
Especially when I had to explain to my teacher where I was.
Looking back, it's kind of funny.
Ms D: Katie, come talk to me.
Me: [/walks up]
Ms D: Where were you?
Me: I-I was in the theater...
Ms D: What was going on?
Me: Well...I--...A fr-friend of mine died...yesterday... [/starts tearing up]
Ms D: Really? ...I'm sorry. Do you know how or why?
Me: ...They told us not to really say anything...
She just seemed kind of awkward at that point, like 'Oh. Maybe being peeved was a bad idea. >_>;;;'
Or maybe it was the fact that she was dressed as a clown.
Oh well.
Though what made me mad was how the councilers dealed with it at 5th period.
During 4th, I was feeling like crap.
I felt sick to my stomach, and thought about going to the chorus room.
I couldn't even read the book we were reading in class.
So 4th period ended, and I went to French, and a friend wanted to go with me, so we talked to Mme about it. She let us go.
(She's such a nice teacher ; w; <333)
So we walked down the hall and saw
And she said they kicked everyone out of the choir room.
And that people had to go to Admin 2 or the Counciling Office.
We were kind of peeved, but we hoped maybe going to the counciling office would help.
As soon as one of the councilers came out and saw us, she was just like "You can talk to a counciler one-on-one, or go to admin 2 and check out"
Wtf.
We just really wanted to talk in small groups...
It really does help.
But they wouldn't let us.
So we walked back and we started crying again.
The way the school handled this...
It was just wrong.
The first period in the theater helped, though.
I'm getting off track of what the main point I wanted this to be...
To all of my friends, I just want to say:
I love you guys. I really do.
If I don't know you too well...or we haven't talked in a while...
I really want to talk to you
And maybe get to know you better.
Because I don't want something like this to happen again where I just wish I knew them better.
I love you guys too much to just lose you so suddenly.
Especially without knowing you.
And please--talk your problems out.
Nothing is worth hurting yourself.
Trust me, I learned this lesson many times over the last few months.
And if you're going through a rough spot, friends are really what you need.
I'm glad I have you guys.
Thanks. <333
PS: Everyone who's still grieving, please, think of Rachel how she was before--
Sugary sweet like candy. :>
Thinking like that this morning really cheered everyone up.
(Thanks
for the saying the candy stuff. xD It made things so much better after that. <3333)
Gloomy
(ft. the new Kuroshitsuji ep)
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"You don't let yourself enjoy much, do you Mr. Daley?"
---- Amelia Earhart
We r worried about ya at school.
...
"BABY COME BACK!!! ANY KIND OF FOOL COULD SEEEEEEE~"
--
"You don't let yourself enjoy much, do you Mr. Daley?"
---- Amelia Earhart
LIAK YOU'D CHASE AFTER ME, AND BE WORRIED AND SUCH~
You did nothing when Russia kidnapped me today...!
[/weep]
ALL OF THIS HAS PUT ME IN DESPAIRRRR~!
[/hangself]
...
And the reason I was gonna leave early was because I was gonna go talk to Meg...
*cough*
--
"You don't let yourself enjoy much, do you Mr. Daley?"
---- Amelia Earhart
THAT'S THE POINT.
...Oh. I see.
>_>
you top, lovey. >:3
~<3
--
"You don't let yourself enjoy much, do you Mr. Daley?"
---- Amelia Earhart
<3
APHELL
--
"You don't let yourself enjoy much, do you Mr. Daley?"
---- Amelia Earhart
I AM SPAMMING YOUR PAGE WITH COMMEMTZORZ.
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"You don't let yourself enjoy much, do you Mr. Daley?"
---- Amelia Earhart
AHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
YES.
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